danggg its been a while!

Well, here we are...about 8 months since my last post and boy have things in my life changed! Lets see...I now have the CUTEST nephew in the world and he stole my heart the minute he was born! I love that child more than anything in this world and would do anything for this kid! And I mean anything! I have been going to a new church that I absolutely love! OneLife has definitely put a new perspective in my heart...on God's word, churches, and anything else that has come along with it. I have slowly been trying to better myself the last couple months, shedding certain things that have been bringing me down one by one. That has probably been the hardest thing for me but absolutely the best. I recently got a new tattoo on my wrist that says Proverbs 19:21 which states "Many plans are in a man;s heart, but the LORD's decree will prevail." This verse has completely put a new outlook on things in my life. I catch myself having to take a step back and saying this verse to myself in my head because it is EASILY forgotten that IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT I WANT!AND EVEN IF I DO WHAT I WANT, IT ISN'T GOING TO TURN OUT HOW I WANT IT TO IF IT ISN'T GOD'S PLAN! I mean it has taken me 19 and a half years to figure this out and thankfully I am now because otherwise my life in my eyes would be spiraling right now. I am thankfully reaslizing when my plans don't work there is always something better that I should have waited for in the first place! This morning at church we talked about Ephesians 2:8-10. Unbelievableverses...I urge everyone to look it up now! It was ironic I already had these verses highlighted in my Bible after turning to them. I am so thankful to now be able to see God's grace. My faith is what has kept me going therefore I am so thankful to have that! My heart is growing bigger and bigger. Like in my last post about compassion, I still am that way and hope to be forever. I want to be able to do something with my compassion, I just don't know what yet. Hopefully it will come to me!